Hi, your birthday is next month. I don’t know how I’m going to celebrate it, but I’m afraid it’s going to be in tears because I miss you so much. Another year without you here with me, hurts a lot. I should be used to it since I have lived without you since I was 4, but I can’t help it. I wish I could put my arms around you and hug you tight and never let go and you would never disappear from my life, but that’s not the way it is. It is selfish of me to want you here when I know you are not in pain anymore where you are. I love you so much.